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Thursday, July 07, 2005

torn into pieces, 11:12 PM

A sudden gush of memories engulfed me..
The fun, joy and an 11th hour frustration we had in ward 43..
Hehehh..
Especially the day I almost fell down in the bus due to low "electrolyte.."
Nizam could just stand behind me and I guess waiting for me to collapse..
Some nurse you are dear friend.. Hmmpphff...
However, he is fun especially with the facial expression whenever he talks..
Now that I am in a renal discipline, life has been rather challenging for me..
My patients are never easy to handle..
6 patients under my care... but I only take charge of 5.. 1 of it is aggressive..
So Brother Jeffrey and Sister Pung will attend to him..
Before another kick reach up my face, I better rest the case..
My muscles are over stretch..
I'm lethargic..
I'm sad..
I'm overwork..
Care plan need to be up by next Friday..
Objective must be met by next Friday..
Discussion about renal patients tomorrow and I have not done a thing yet..

My heart was pumping faster than usual..
Pulse was beyond the normal range..
Vital signs was unstable..
That happens when I see you..
I prayed silently hopefully conflicts never happen between us again..
Expectation was never there and will never be there..
Eventually, we could make a smooth sail..
However, I was never right..
Can I at least be?
Strange feelings overwhelmed me..
I hate to be shared..
Irritation took place..
I have never felt any better after talking to you..
Perhaps, that is why I kept coming back to you..
I have to make changes in life in order not to fall the same spot again..
Guess this is the waking up call to be INDEPENDENT..
Haizz..
I have been making a lot of sudden changes in life in this short period of time..
You know, maybe you are right when you said we are not meant to be together..
Because we can never be in all aspects..
The one who suffers is always me..
Have I got any strength to withstand my thoughts this time..??
I am going to miss Mustafa Noor Bin Adnan.. Hehehehh..hmm...

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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