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Friday, July 29, 2005

torn into pieces, 10:35 AM

Aha. Now is my break while waiting for the next lecture. I had alot of stuff to do but, I couldn't resist to blog because of the current feelings that have been affecting my performance.. Cey.. Affect kape... hehehh...

Life have been super busy for me. Projects. Presentations. Meetings. Meeting meeting meeting. Naik fed up aku.. For once, Sara is as stress as me. Normally, she will chill and be cool no matter what happens..

This morning, the both of us skip the first lecture and will probably skipping the coming one too..
She is sad.
I am sick.
She feels useless.
I felt hopeless.
She is confident.
I am confused..
To sum up, we felt like crying.. Cannot take this tension anymore.

I hope to clear the air. I am confuse with this something in me. Perhaps you are right, Janna. I will do it in no time but, at least give me the time to clear all my presentations and I will face the fact. But, not now.. Please.. Dalam diam aku nie bermasalah jugak.. Heheh.. Masalah yang aku carik sendiri. Haizz. I shouldn't have indulge in this. I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS HOLE..

Sometimes, takdir Tuhan tu sukar kite jangkakan.. I still couldn't see the motive He set up in front of me yet.. Hopefully someday, I will..

My stomach feels bloated. Seen the Doctor. Had a long lecture on excessive intake of vitamin E. Gave me an antibiotic. But, it doesn't seems to work.. I felt like doing a gastric lavage. Tulah, yang bukan2 je ambik vitamin E.. Heheh..

Now, my throat hurts.. my brain freeze. I feel feverish. I don't want to eat any medication anymore. I am not motivated. I feel like crying!!!!!! School finish at 5pm.. But, I probably leave school by 2pm..

By the way, I met Izzad yesterday.

So, 29 is the date.. Hmm..

He hasn't been messaging..

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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