Sekarang dah jadi kerja baru aku to drag Sara for morning meeting..
Ada dia cakap sebelah mata dia je dah buka lagi sebelah masih tutup..
Cute lah you Sara...
Hehehhe..

Last night, I spoke to him..
Had all the things cleared..
At least for ONCE, we cleared things without a single disagreement..
I put anger, frustration and irritation aside..
Means, strategy aku menjadilah... hehehh..
See, I can do it if I want to..
Was a little sad because I allowed myself to fall into the same trap..
So, tears accompanied me to sleep last night..
I was thinking, yeah..let me cry today, so that tomorrow will be a better day for me..

However, I was wrong..
This morning, my elder sis flared up for something that my younger sis did..
I heard the commotion but I did not want to interfere..
Moreover, I am having conflicts of my own..
I hurried my way out from the house..
I want to shut my ears from anything and everything..

Dear Sister, if you are an outsider, I won't be bothered about you..
But, you are my sister..
You know for yourself you got to change into a better person..
I don't think I have anything else to say..
You are big enough to think for yourself..
If you think that I am more concern about portraying a good image, you are absolutely wrong..
Do spare a thought about how our parents will feel from your actions..

Just as I thought, my elder sis would message me pertaining to the commotion this morning..
You know what, I don't want to know!!!!!

I hope my tears dried up soon as I need to go for 2 group discussions..
One of the group is under my care..
If I cancelled the meeting, it would not be fair..
But, with swollen eyes and unworking brain, I don't think I can make it..
Hence, people will know I am not OK..
School ends at 2pm..
I don't want to go home early today..
I need a break...
Really..

I don't mind working on the projects day to night..night to day..
Ya Allah kenape lah kau duga aku time2 aku tengah very very tied up with school loads..
I not talking to him about this..
I can handle this myself even if tears will accompany every of my moves..

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Mardia and I are rotting in the computer lab with nothing better to do.. She is busy editing her template while I am busy staring at the computer for no purpose at all.. At the same time she is listening to Cinta Tragika again and again.. While I am listening to Fantasi Cinta again and again. During the meeting, my leader were saying.. "Ifa, spread the work. Don't do it all by yourself. Later, when you can't cope, you will cry. You still have another presentation to go." Ishh.. you've been trick by my swollen eyes, red nose and wobbly head, dear.. I am not crying because of the work load.. Hehehehh...

And yeah, she have been giving me this fishy smile the whole day. Don't know what is that for.. She said this.. "I am happy to see you happy.." Lain macam je.. You know what..?? You're weird.. Heheheh...

I was really hungry when lecture begins.. Since, its a 2 hours lecture, I decided to eat during the first hour and sit in in the next hour.. When we came back, all we know lecture is over.. Hahahaha... Sara pulak pergi main pool dengan Karno.. This is UNHEALTHY.. Kalau aku tak sit in, korang pun ikut tak sit in.. Kalau aku tak sit in itu maknanya, aku ada masalah peribadi sikit.. Janganlah ikut.. Masalah peribadi kape...?? Ahahahahkkss..

Now, I have to beg Mardia to go to the clubroom.. Bila kita nak training kalau dia asik sibuk dengan blog je..

Err, Syam...did you took my pink car from my blog...?? Hehehehh