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Sunday, December 04, 2005

torn into pieces, 8:45 PM

attachment is over.. yeehaa!!! the moment that I have been waiting for..
its time to bury myself with loads of novels to fill the whole month..
hasn't been reading alot since semester begin..
anyway, the second week in ward 47 isn't that bad after all..
i began to feel busy right up from monday itself..
you know, working in a paediatric ward isn't easy..
having to face the sick child everyday..
abuse cases if any, doing suctioning on the tiny ones, inserting plug to a 19 days infant..
and of course hearing cries everyday that you are certain which bed it came from..
some cries non stop till their eyes turned puffy..
let alone the frequent epilepsy.. the slow growth.. the congenitals..

there was a day at work when most of my patients are down with fever..
it got so high that I started to panic.. ermm well, I am always panicked for no reason..
the mummy started crying when I told her about her son's temperature..
the incident somehow touches my heart or I would said my soul..
so, out of kindness, I told the mummy that she can bring the child for a bath..
she refused for a reason that I don't quite understand..
but, I insisted.. and she obey..
tahu pun takut... heheheh..
only then the fever went down and of course with the help of paracetamol too.. hmmphff..
not only do I have to comfort the child but also console the mummy... heheh..

unfortunately, my last day are also the last day of most of my patients..
its not death dearie.. it means they could go home..
I kind of feel delighted.. they too..
we started waving farewell..
smile and excitment held on our faces..
it does feel GOOD..
for once, it did.......

working with Nafisah is cool..
she's cool.. always letting me go for the first break..
I think I met her before a couple of times or much more..
sadly, she didn't recognised me.. heehehh..
she recognised Izzad instead.. hahah..
despite working with the cool and fun ones, we have politics too..
after some advices cum leactures from Mr Charming, I decided to stay away..
just be who I am and voice out when needed..
and I did it ourkayy..
and what did I get..??
"I thought you were with us??"
I know it is hard working with someone self-centered and "I know everything" but you know, I am just so lucky that I am working with someone else this time.. heheh..
so, good luck.. ;P
I've gotten mine long ago..
but, seriously, someone got to do the talking..

Sara and I were talking yesterday..
about attachments and stuff..
well, both of us were scared to have our own kids in future..
what if the child is not like what it should be and that's scary because I won't be able to face it..
because I know well enough I just can't..
ish.. nauzubillahiminzalik..

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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adee.
adi.
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azlina.
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uma.
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