am i demanding too much?
thats the question i always asked myself..
things are complicated as it is..
i dont want to bother abt anything other than me and him..

im searching solutions for all my questions..
im finding happiness in all my worries and frustration..
i needed time to get used with the new environment..
this is what happen when you're not prepared..
esp emotionally and mentally..
i dont know how you do it, Janna..
definitely, long distance relationship doesnt work on me..
im having headache..
so is he..

i am happy when he said..
"ok jadi"
i feel like meeting a superstar..
the moment i stepped home..
i cleanup and get ready..
i wore the tudung with wet hair..
i dont care and i dont want to care..
or...ermm.. i care abt the headache later..

im glad that i had the diary with me..
sorry for the trouble and thank you Lynn..
at least, with the diary in hand, i feel occuppied..
i feel near..
hence, i cld write whatever i feel w/o restrictions..
in here.. takkan nak tulis love love kan..heh..
semua org baca..
in that diary, jus me and him..
and that's private..
we let out how we feel abt each other at a point of time..

i need to talk to you, Janna..
cos, you know my situation the best..
and you know Izzad and me..