ehemm..
first, the day nyp sent the letters telling me that i was accepted into nursing, i wasnt excited.. my heartbeat dont stop beating for a moment..
ive mentioned this alot of times.. nursing is not my first choice..
during my sec days i never imagine or forsee myself becoming a nurse..
i, nurzalifa wanted to be a dietitian!
the dream never fade.. it stays at the back of my mind..

but, today, i am pleased and not ashame to say that i am a nurse (insya'allah)..
through out my posting after posting, ive seen and learnt alot of things..
for instance, death can occur anywhere and anytime..
just like our recent Bangladesh case in emergency..
just like today when a patient was told he could only live up till 6 mths..
just like when i received patient with piting edema all over..
bedridden patients..
comatose patients..
but what keep them strong are their spirit and moral support from ppl around them..

and what keep me going and stay put in nursing are due to non stop suppportive ppl around me..
of course along the way, criticism never fail to invade..
when i was in year 1, i remember getting scolded by the sister.. and that was my damn first ever posting..
senang cakap, its either i get the scolding or i am tested in knowledge wise..
because they said, 'as nurses, you must be knowledgeable!'
kadang2, tak masuk akal.. mana ada budak year 1 tahu set up drip..

soon, insya'allah, i'll be starting my career..
its scary.. because like i said, once a mistake, it can never be erased..
this posting is my crucial period..
im taking a role of a sn.. so are my friends..
stress, busy, responsibilities, irritated became the pass and parcel..
after the long day at work, i am still smiling..