man.. i totally forgot i have a blog..
been very busy and lazy at the same time..

31 December, 2300 hrs is a memorable day for me..
the departure had a greatest impact on me..
till today, i am still talking about it at random..
the departure has opened up my mind, change my perspective and taught me something..
i still had watery eyes when i think about her..
the way her sick eyes were, the grumbles, the beggings, the demands, sad and sorrows..
my first day in the ward after the incident was a hard one..
its even harder to get over this when your job scope is dealing with the sick..
Insya'allah, i will pull this through in one piece..

i had a conversation with Izzad last night about death..
death occurs at anytime..
whether you're prepared to meet Him or not..
whether you have enough amalan or not..
and you can't escape death..
when you have to go, you have to go..

alot of things happened throughout my absence from this blog..
Izzad and i had an episode of 'starting the bike that could not start at the road side'
tu belum termasuk stalled cases.. heheh..
sigh.. the bike is starting to give problems..
im amazed by the level of patients he had on the bike..
however, if its not for the bike, alot of things wont be happenning..
so, i truly appreciate that..

looking back, we kind of went through alot..
the joy, fun, happiness, silly moments, sorrows, panicky, angry at each other..
stalled incidents, motor tak boleh start.. heh..
when my feelings start to change for someone new, all these get me thinking..
i hate to be doing this to you..
i needed time to convert these thoughts..
this fantasy must come to an end..

i have been receiving lectures from dear friends..
siap cakap kalau aku nak let go dia nak take over.. hehe..
ramai jugak peminat awk! =)