i always thought i can be strong enough..
but sometimes i felt i could give up..
real give up..

the group is a disaster today..
never ask why..

there is always something in common about human..
misinterpret
misjudge
prejudice

i had my share when i was in ngee ann..
but, that does not make it my final share..
there are always bound to be more and more..

people's saying can hurt you..
people's actions can traumatised you..
people's blunt remarks can flip you..
some hold on to it for a lifetime..
dont blame these people..
they are too hurt..
too sore..
why?
because assumptions are made without acknowledging the root of the cause..
btw, is it even your problem?

thats the reason why the word 'sorry' is invented..
it wasnt invented for the fun of it.. come on..
sorry, can settle all ties..
at least, it can cure my hatred..
im not revengful like you thought..

i dont understand why is it that my problem can be a problem to others..
its like ni masalah masyarakat ke?
ke masalah dunia?
you tell me now..
afterall what Janna said is just right..
dont worry i'll ask them for some technique manuals when my day comes..

sometimes, i was just wondering what is it that i have done to be receiving all these!

just tell me how do you feel when your partner dont back you up?
your partner tries to hide the mistakes that was so damn bloody CLEAR?
but, instead point all 10 fingers plus 10 more toes at you?

each time these happen, my explanation days are over..
my speech and writings never work..
but, i hope..
and i pray hard..
that someday..
just one day..
you will understand my pain..
how their assumptions have hurt me..

i always tell this to Noreen..
its sad when there are 2 person who loves one another..
but, cannot be together..
and im about to get myself into that statement..

dear all,
im sorry if this entry is alittle irrational..
the mind is not sorted..
the eyes macam nak terkeluar!