oh well..

i have been unhappy with my small body frame..
i always find myself way too thin..
im not even a 40kg..
which you can never tell the difference btw a lamp post and me..
and i gorge food down my throat..
i force myself to eat more..
thats what i do best..
the mindset was..
you eat more, you gain more..
because, sometimes, i can forgot to eat..
im serious..

when i see anyone thinner than me or as thin..
i asked around 'Am i that thin?' 'Do i look anorexic?' 'Are my legs like her?' hah..

Rad envy my small frame..
but, i always tell her, appreciate what you have because i wish im bigger..
seluar jeans size 24 pun masih longgar..
thats why i hate to shop for bottoms..
confirm longgar nye..
naik malas..
lain kali nak carik yang ada getah nye..
no need to bother about belts that is troublesome sometimes..

i never know what is it like to be 45kg..
i hope to be at least a 43kg by the end of the year..
but,
Izzad have weird taste..
he likes small petite girl with long straight hair! heheh..

on the other hand, take a look at Rilla Melati and Lynnie Lydia..
they are gorgeous eventhough they are skinny..


come to think of it, i rather be small frame than big frame..
no offence pls..

ishh..
i should be bersyukur with God's gift..
ramai yang nak badan macam aku nie.. heheheh..