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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

torn into pieces, 8:05 PM

he and i have a brief conclusion. 'undergrads dont have time to heal a broken heart', he said. 'a staff nurse who assist surgeries everyday also do not have time to heal a broken heart', i said. its such a pity oh no its such a BASTARD how people can leave a long term relationship for someone else. so keterlaluan! but not to worry. what goes around comes around. Yazid was telling me, 'next bf jangan carik yang handsome eh. find the ugly one but sweet like me!' Hahah. banyaklah kamu. my main attraction in a man is always the brain first. my first question is always, 'sekolah kat mane?' its ok if you are penniless in the beginning especially when you are schooling or just graduate or still serving national service for that matter. but, once you have cleared that path, you must work hard and cope your own finances well. sigh. belum sempat aku merasai him paying more than i do, this had to happen. when i thought, we can go easy abit on financial when he started working next year. more sigh. because, next year will never come for us. the moment i become a confirm staff, i will be happy for myself on my own. hence, i will enjoy an extra 300 bucks on my own. my year end bonus on my own too. and yes it scares me if im going to be on my own forever. a friend asked if im going to have him replaced. my breakup is not even final yet. im not those who breakup and date someone else the next day or already have someone on standby. seriously, i hasnt think about replacement. so hard on myself, i dont think i can ever trust man anymore. i couldnt help agreeing with Janna with some facts she brought up about man. so true. how can i deny? im beginning to shut my system about loving a man. i can live without a man but i cant live without a person who wont listen to my stories. wahaha.

the only happiness around here for me after 2 months is, Bro managed to stay in Express stream after a few months of intensive study. Alhamdulilah. Bro if you happen to stumble here, listen up. Education is important. dah start dah. dont spend your youth without education. Ilmu itu Emas. remember that.

my left eye is swollen. so much about porns. hahah. i still want to go to work. pls DO NOT chase me home. i dont like the idea of sitting at home and start thinking about my comatosed relationship.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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