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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

torn into pieces, 11:09 PM

it feels great when the surgery has completed and the surgeon thanked you. he said, 'thanks Ifa.' he remember my name. haha. since the male and female changing rooms are just opposite to one another, Dr Senthil, shouted my name from his changing room and said thanks again. the fact that its coming from him, whom we know as the irritating surgeon, it quite surprise me. =)

after the first day of congress, i hangout with the peeps at al-majlis. i shared with them my recent situation. yeah! the breakup. their advice is, listen to sad songs. hit the lowest point. get up and pick up from there. thats when you know you're climbing. the fact that nowadays i listen to metallica, avenged sevenfold and akon hasn't really bring me the mood the need to feel sad. i dare not listen to songs we once share together like songs from Avril Lavigne and Simple plan. oh! those songs are sucks! but i will listen to sad songs now and cry. and i will pick up from there. haizz. this is what i hate to do. the post breakup. it sucks!! of course lah that Babi (dah tukar name sekarang) is happy. fuck.

these few weeks have been my most tiring weeks ever. im awake early in the morning. go to work. after work merayap. im home late where sometimes i hit past 12 midnight although the next day is a working day. i think a lot too these days where sometimes, i have weird dreams. nonetheless, i borrowed this great book, 'Mend the Broken Heart.' haha. cool. that book is superb. perhaps after i have moved on, i shall write a book, titled, 'How to tell your Ex Boyfriend that he is an ASSHOLE.' ok crap. im tired.

i called him last night. who else the Babi. i told him that i dont want the money. when i ask for it, i was angry and i still do. its just that im alittle cooled down now. just dont let me see him or i'll kill him. apparently, people like him, tak patut hidup. hidup buat sakitkan hati orang lain baik pergi mampus je. ok back to the money, i told him. im not asking for it back anymore. in another words, i have HALAL kan dunia akhirat. but, should he feel guilty and he thinks that he dont deserve my money especially, when he have CHEATED on me for 1 YEAR, then, he should know what he should be doing. ada hati pulak nak throw my cashcard at my face. so rude. sape ajar ni? your bitch ah...? i also told him that even if hari raya yang ke-57 pun i dont think i will forgive you. not so easy. as much as i dont want the money, my only prayer for Izzad is that the pain that im going through today is what he will be going through one day. the tears that i shed today is the tears he will shed one day. i did all these because, i dont waant to keep in contact with him anymore. pester him about the money would means im still communicating with him. and i dont want that.

im glad that i hang on for that 2 months. otherwise, i will never know that he is such a BASTARD. met Janna last night. she agreed that she is a bitch and he is a bastard. bastard and btch is equals to BABI. she was telling me, 'Zalifa. i think for once, you must listen to me. dont turn back even if he comes back again.' seriously, even if he is my jodoh, i will go against it. i will run away. yes RUN.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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