Mardia was telling me, 'Ifa, dont let me see him. i will go up to him and slap him!' Sara was saying, 'do you need someone to punch him. i can bring my people.' Ya Allah! kalau pendekar2 dah in action. susah nak calm them down. hehe. when it supposed to be the other way round. Iman calms me down. Allah is with me. Allah is not with him. when i told him to solat istihara, he dont even do that. an advice, go back to the path.. you will see the wonderful of Allah. if you're dead tomorrow, you'll regret that you never bother to get to know Allah.i thought of suicidal when things got a little rough in the beginning. yes! im imperfect. im a human. whats wrong with a girl who wears tudung think about suicidal? they have soft spot too. and i question Allah's fate everyday. i thought this is cruel. it cant be happening. this is madness. but, when i start to accept it slowly and think that He have bigger plans for me, i feel GOOD. who knows, i'll get married to a doctor and he will get a fill in the blanks!Sara was telling me to go easy on my curse and swears. every word that you said, it is a doa! the more i think that doa orang yang dizalimi makbul, lagi tulah aku nak doa yang macam2. for one thing, she has the point there. she said, 'leave all the swears to me. you are someone who prays. its inappropriate.' i will try. Insya'allah. no guarantees.
i was chatting with Hadinata. 2 years my senior. basket! see, now i start thinking about that Bastard who is 1 year my senior. dammit!! we are planning to meetup. yes all of us. this is interesting. its been 6 years since we last met. Hadi is still the same. funny dude.
i was told that my preceptor was telling people at work that i will be the next in-charge of O&G in dsot. ahaha. she said the good things about me when i was on mc. aiyah! but never did when i am around. hehe. ok ok o&g in-charge will come to work tomorrow with a new semangat and this time, NO ONE yes. i repeat, NO ONE will bring down this semangat anymore. especially not BASTARDS and BITCHES. if its Allah, i redha. He knows whats best for me. =)
this is now what i call pillar of strength..
and of course my parents.
myself..
definitely, not this anymore. maybe, this is the only picture i will keep. sigh.
you can do it. come on...
and of course my mystery friend, Hasanul Ariffin from NUS too. when i see you strong, i grow stronger. =)
