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Sunday, November 18, 2007

torn into pieces, 10:42 PM

oh well. where should i start this.. hmm. i was talking to a friend. from that conversation, i decided to do this. yeah.

to whom it may concern.

i dont want to write it on a paper and give it to you. i dont want to call you as hearing your voice will just make me vulnerable. i dont want to see you because i just dont see the need to anymore. so i'll write it here. im not too sure if you still read my humble page. but, i know someday somehow, you will always remember aromatic-scented and you remember me.

as my hatred and grudges for you grows just like how we see the mushrooms grows, all this time, i am not at ease. im not sure how at ease you could be after having someone who curse and swear at you everyday and hope you die soon. like i told you i wont hate you for long and i will forgive you eventually. and i have. somehow. but, i'll NEVER forget the day you cheat on me. but, after much thinking, i no longer hate you either. i hope i can hate you longer. but i just cannot do this to you no matter how much you can hurt me. sometimes, im angry with myself for letting some bastard like you go so easily.

nevertheless, ive never regret knowing you and became your soulmate for awhile. i take this as takdir, a learning path and that Allah have bigger plans for me or this is one of the ways to wash off my sins and be closer to Him. i shall not question His decision for me anymore.

all i want from you is NOT to return me all the stuff please. it just will hurt me more. and i dont want the money either. you need it more than i do. someday Izzad, should you realised how much you have hurt me, please repent. please stop the habit of cheating on your partner as this isnt the way to express your anger. it doesnt work that way and it never will.

so..

till here..

yeah..

goodbye 4 years..

yours truly =)

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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