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Friday, November 23, 2007

torn into pieces, 11:39 PM

i have special thoughts for my friends tonight. =) i was alone in my room browsing the calendar and the organiser. first, it feels great to be alone for awhile especially after the tough week. as i flip the calendar, i saw my little note. tough week. sucky day. lets do it again. he is not picking up. it doesnt work. i'll try again. his busy week. and finally. Bang. the breakup. when i take a look at how i was 3 months ago, i was really in a bad bad shape. read my past entries. juggling with both work thus, new responsibilities and relationship crisis wasnt easy. i believe what keep me strong today is Iman.

true friends are those who are with you when you really need them. for once, im glad that my two bestfriends are mafias. haha. they stood up for me when they see me getting weaker. when i cant handle her. when her statements hurt me too much. and when the truth hurts. when i was too crash. they shield me. they face the breakup with me. during the initial period, they called and msg me every night just to check if i was alright. they watch me recover and they are still watching me recover. besides the bestfriends, there is Yazid who help me just as much. he told me his breakup story and how he pick up from then on. he inspired me with his encouraging messages. i still have all of them, dude. =) at some point when im down, i read your messages. he, who watch me cry for the first time. he, who told me if i fall backwards while climbing, there are us you can rely on. never call him. =)

there is also my sister whom i know try to help me in some ways. telling me to ignore the bitch. she offered to talk to him whenever i want her to. often i told her not to waste her time. you got the marriage to think about which is far more important than my breakup. she's just a room away by the way. heh. my colleagues who made me laugh again who always tell me to take my time. they bear with my nonsense at work. my strongest girl, Azlina who is with me before and after the breakup. its really a blessing to hangout with you all the time. there came along Hasan who never fail to give brilliant advices, ways to heal a broken heart and remind me to always remember Allah. since he is coping with his breakup too, we kind of help one another. reminding one another not to korek2 the plaster. heh. to always stay strong and take time to heal. he, who heard me cry for the first time.

they NEVER told me to stop my angry entries. not even once. they let me vent my anger and sadness. they let me do just how i have did. they supported my moves. only people who dont share the same sentiments told me to stop blogging that way which i dont give a heck.

hey my friends, thank you for being there for and with me. im feeling much better now. i will never forget the time and effort shared. thank you so much. i appreciate them to bits. i love you all. much love.

psst. mardia, i have a surprise for you. and i dah rehearsal dah lagu birthday. baik punya. hehe

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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