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Monday, January 07, 2008

torn into pieces, 12:19 AM

ive always think that Friday is hari kemenangan umat Islam. the family spend the whole day waiting at the Forensic Medicine Dept. its heartbreaking and nerve cracking. we waited patiently. but still, the pathologist insisted to do further investigation on a 4 years old child. honestly, my patients was already to its brim. if only i have the power, i'll dash in and speak to the pathologist. yeah. if only.

Almarhum was retained for 3 days before he was buried safely this morning. i was at kubur and after that, i rushed to class. i dont want to miss my first class. sometimes, it tickled me how everyone in the family have the same attitude. what i mean here is, we are, sorry to say, 'fierce' people. no kidding. that explained my short tempers, high expectations, impatient and my stuckup look. due to the rushing, we do have miscommunications like, jenazah akan dibawa ke pusara straight. change plan, jenazah akan dibawa ke rumah dulu. change again, jenazah akan dibawa ke pusara from sgh. of course i went... yang mane satu ni betul??

however, i like when abg Wan said this, 'skg, abg dgn abg Hassim pergi sgh with Jasa Budi staff. from there, we suit to kubur. mandi. kapan. solat semua kat sana. dah takde masa lagi ni. korang straight away suit pergi masjid lama.' 'oh suit eh.' 'yes! semua suit.' aiyoh.

when i look at almarhum, my emotions starts invading. my family had 3 deaths for 3 straight years. if i including this, it makes 4 deaths in 4 straight years. still, i believe setiap yang berlaku, pasti ada hikmah.

in the mist of kekecohan, i managed to had this little conversation to my cousin. 'kak, i think this child is lack of proper treatment probably due to some financial strain. Almarhum probably had hidden medical problems which we probably missed noticing. just to let you know, in future if you need help with medical issues, im not an expert, but, in ways that i can, i will help you.' =)

Babe, like i explained to you. they cant write asthma as the cause of death. its something else. i'll tell you when i see you. i dont want to enclose it here. you know what i mean. *wink*

as for class today, its Ust Ismail Haron lah brader. 5 years ago, he taught me Bimbingan Mu'minin in pergas at Play Fair. wahh!! that was sooo long ago. my first lesson in pergas and he lectured about ILMU. today, his lectures is about Intelektual & Ilmu. the way he speak, his gestures, his lawak, his smile.. hah! it hasnt change. hehee.

let us spare this time to sedekah kan Al-Fatehah to Almarhum Ahmad Nabil Bin Hassim.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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