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Monday, January 14, 2008

torn into pieces, 10:58 PM

Winny and i found our new indulgence. just what we need after the unwind =)

believe it or not. i weigh 42.2kg... whacko! i want to maintain it this way. so no more nursing a broken heart for me. it tears my whole weight down. idiot! and i better not see that asshole or i'll eat him up as well. thank God that i insisted in meeting Ahmad than Mardia and Yazid that night or, i bound to have my blood pressure increased the whole night till dawn. its already 3 months and i still hate him. im referring to real hate. not the hate but love all that shit. honestly, i do not know how to forgive him. macam mana ni beliau nak jawab di akhirat ni if i never will forgive him. haizz.. Bastard. Bastard. if he dies tomorrow, i would probably not care. staying in the same neighbourhood is tough. i asked Yazid if he met Ifah after the breakup. he said NO. i asked a few friends if they had crosspath with their ex and they said NO. i hope mine will be a NO for the rest of my life. i really cannot see his dumb face. thats the reason why immediately after the breakup, i stop visiting websites that has to do with him. i even deleted and blocked him on friendster and msn. surprisingly, i never had any sympathy or empathy towards him with regards to how i write about him.

that aside. the friendship between Winny and i are getting stronger each day. we both have the same cap now. =) since we hardly in the same theatre, we do not get to work together. however, there is one place we know we will meet, the sluice room! thats when we will tell one another, 'eh, i got something to tell you.' 'ok later we unwind.' or i can popped up suddenly and said, 'this Peter R ah can really make me angry you know.' besides, we have our own head gestures too. we never take things at heart like there was once she said, 'orif you still cant do what more blah blah...' and i laughed after she said that. if there is one thing i have to work on is, i will not rush her whenever we shop...! haiyah. so slow lah. that would be my usual remark. ahhah. at the end of the day, we will tell one another 'if you ever find me irritating, please let me know.' =) she holds 3/4 of my secrets. =) and hey, just as you will soon know, i will get what i want regarding the issue that we discussed earlier and i will be in par with you. woohoo...!! =))

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

abby.
adee.
adi.
afdlin shauki.
azlina.
aznita.
azuwa.
belinda.
dani.
dila.
dina.
eileen.
farain.
farhana.
fauzie.
hasan.
hidayah.
huzaifah.
janna.
kak ayu.
kak azrina.
kak khatijah.
maliza.
mardia.
maria.
mastura.
mingyu.
mira.
nafisah.
neng.
nuraini.
sahara.
shafique.
shahida.
shu.
sufie.
sufian.
uma.
valerie.
winny.

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