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Saturday, March 15, 2008

torn into pieces, 2:35 PM

im so pissed right now. therefore im sorry if my words will hurt anyone.

look, we promised to work on this together. cukup masa she said she cant because she have to go out with her BF. wth! the exam is just tomorrow. if you still cannot see this coming, i cant help you! you had 3 days leaves when i am only given a day to work on my second thesis and i managed to complete it when you are still working on your first thesis and hasnt started on the second!!! i am here very concern if you will finish it on time when you are sooooooooooo damn relax! i can understand if you are the 11th hour person and im a typical type A person, but, look at the number of days you've left before the submission. yes! i promised to help you if you encounters difficulty throughout this course but, i cant help you if you are the 12th hour person for that matter!!

its difficult when you have a friend who dont have the sense of urgency AT ALL..!! Sara as i know is a procastinator. but, i can tell you that eventhough she procastinate, by now, she will be busy studying for exam especially when its just a day away. besides the fact that i know she will watch tv while studying. hahaa. babe, i miss studying with you, you know.. i miss rushing datelines with you. remember, no matter how sucky our time management is, we still make it HAPPEN at the end of it.. school days with you guys is something i'll remember for life..

at work, i have been quite pissed with people i work with. im not the kind of person who is calculative about who does what and you should do this and that. im the sort that if you're not doing it, its ok i will do it. im not sure whether i work too fast or the people around me are too slow. some reasons why i want to be completely ready before my surgeons are scrubbed up is because i dont want to give myself unnecessary stress like, eh, my set is not complete or, eh, i dont have this and that. i hate it when it happened especially when i scrubbed for cases im assisting for the first time or cases that im not too sure yet.

in addition to my discomfort is when Sister is in the theatre supervising everyone. it sucks. like the other day, a nurse was preparing for lap chole. surgeons are scrubbed up and she still have not attached all her trocars. basically, she is not ready. as a circulating nurse, i kept telling her to fix this and that. and in the end, i scrubbed just to start off for her. i dont blame her as she doesnt assist lap chole often just like i dont assist acl every week. soon after we paint and drape, i realised the hasan's head is not in the set. i called out for assistance. the gs in-charge barge in and make a hell of noise. oh God! can this be for real?? we are here very puzzled about the lost and she is there questioning me repeatedly where was it. if i knew, would i be calling for help?? she is so noisy that i feel like using the haemorrhoidectomy stapler to staple her mouth. worst, hasan is the first instrument they will use after infiltration and knife. what a day..

i was really tired the whole damn week!! i can be a MONSTER and nasty when im tired. besides, i will avoid any phonecalls and smses. but no. i pick those that i feel like i want to. hehe..

now my hair kept flying to my face and it irritates me. i just feel like wearing my ot cap right now!! very soon, my mum will discover my stupidity and she will say, 'ni dah kenape pulak!' the specs keep sliding down from my face and yes im typing craps!!

wow!! i feel better now. im sorry if this entry offended anyone..

adious!

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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