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Sunday, April 06, 2008

torn into pieces, 5:29 PM

i missed the classes i was so looking forward for the whole week!! the driving class and religious class. i was down with terrible fever. it really makes me want to bang my head at the wall. i hate to lie down on the bed for 2 straight days. there goes my weekend. moreover, i had plans for the weekend. for one thing, the sick made me think of Him more. besides Allah, i think of mum too. i so need the touch of a mother whenever i get all sick. however, i hate to get sick because i hate to see myself lying down and feel miserable. that reminds me how my patients tolerate their illness for many many years. Subhanallah. another thing that i hate is, ive no confidence in going anywhere alone. im good at fainting and vomiting. i dont understand why.

i was preparing for class when mak came in and said, 'nak pergi class jugak?' 'abeh macam mana. i have to go. takkan taknak pergi.' 'then, pergi balik naik taxi.' i gave up for class when i realised im not fit enough to. sigh.

it all started after lunch when the team were preparing for a quite massive operation. we had 3 different surgeries to prepare for 1 patient. i was circulating for Selena when Sister said, 'Ifa. scrub in.' i was pissed because i dont feel that well. especially when the bug starts to invade slowly. but, not that i had much choice right after she said that as it sounds like an order. it makes me weaker when i had to put on that heavy lead apron. gosh. all i had with me are prayers so that i wont faint during surgery. its not FUNNY to faint during surgeries.

im glad i did not assist acl for i know i do not have the stamina. Dr Andrew approached me when i was washing my hands. he said, 'Ifa, why are you not assisting me anymore?' 'oh. thats because i am not in your theatre today.' 'or did i offended you?' 'oh no! its not that. when i have the chance i will assist you alright.' he smiled. ah! Dr Andrew, the good looking surgeon. whenever i looked at him, i feel at ease. i bet anyone would feel that way too. =)

i watched Danielle on tv. there was Ashri Zainal, the gorgeous on tv. he is rugged and gorgeous. not fat but tall. and thats my man. =) sakit sakit pun sempat. ehem. hehe.

i better rest now. this muscle aching is driving me crazy.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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