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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

torn into pieces, 9:59 PM

i told mum few days ago that if i continue to stay in dsot, i'll have no prospect. it quite pissed me when she told me she will pull me out from ortho theatre over really RIDICULOUS reason. aha! you want to know what is her reason...? yes! just because according to her, i do not know my O&G inventory..!! like what the....?? inventory like what we know are equipments that are kept in the cupboard. not used. NOT USED lah for God sake. i may be STUPID for not knowing ALL the equipment names but, i could guess it right what they are for..!! btw, checking inventory are done during your free time!! how can you do your inventory when you have cases running. how dumb can this be..??

ive been scrubbing for orthopaedics for a few months now and ive begin to like assisting orthopaedics. why cant you just exposed me to other disciplines peacefully before i enroll for advance diploma...?? why is it you never want me to do other disciplines and keep me under your armpit for some ridiculous reasons?? do you know that i WANT TO LEARN!! LEARN LEARN LEARN!! can somebody understand that i want to learn as much as i can before i take my adv dip...!! i want to be an efficient scrub nurse lah for God sake.. this WHOLE thing is really dumb.. i know given time and opportunity, i will do it good. i believe in myself and i know Allah will help me. Insya'allah. so please..

is this what you want me to do...? wait for all the eggs to hatch all day so we can start the embryo replacement..? or go next door and help with that sinful abortion everyday...?? im sorry to say this, these people only knows how to make babies and once they realised they are pregnant, they abort them. this world is crazy....!! and I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS ON DAILY BASIS!!! i want that adrenaline rush environment. if you take me off from doing orthopaedics, i'll ask for transfer. i cannot take all these nonsense anymore!! first, the eye department wanted me to be in eye, and you disagreed. at that point of time, i was still new, so, there are nothing much i can do about it. second, ortho Sister wanted to switch me to orthopaedics, you do not allowed too. im not saying im good because im not. im still learning like i said. but, im glad and bersyukur that some people at work see my capability. thus, some of them give me the opportunity. so, dont just snap that way. it makes me want to punch you! but, now, if you dont allow me to assist ortho, i will SCREAM!! why do you want to keep me...? whatever is that for..?? i wont be staying in dsot forever. i still have dreams for major ot. so please..

please..

i love working in the operating theatre. at some point in this career, just dont cut off my enthusiasm and my interest. once, i lost them, its difficult for a come back..

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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