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Saturday, April 19, 2008

torn into pieces, 9:44 PM

ive been thinking about my career lately. to be honest, ive been unhappy about some things at work. the constant remarks ive been getting from my nm or i should put it, the constant threaten ive been getting. thats not all, the embryologist is adding salt into the wound. i badly wanted to escape but to no avail. i dont want to end up like, keluar mulut buaya masuk mulut naga.. thus, Shaye told me to put up an imaginary wall so, i wont be affected.

i understand their tension. lately, the team cant get the patients pregnant. thus, they are finding fault to almost everything. from the nurses skills to the sterility to the condition of the theatre to all the cases done in o&g theatre. just like when the orthopaedics discovered that they are having serious infection cases and they start reviewing all the related factors to find the cause of the occurence. deep in my heart, i believe all this pregnancy business is in the fate of Allah. nevertheless, if there is anything i can do to improve or get my patients pregnant, i will very well do it. they paid a huge sum for this. no kidding. mentioning about pregnancy, someone i know is pregnant!! weee.. congratulation! akhirnya.

i met Ahmad. the usual place, Starbucks. nowadays, he dont ask me, 'Ifa, starbucks tonight?' it has switched to, 'Ifa, meet you at 1830. starbucks.' sounds like an order. hahaa. as though he knew i was quite bored at home. for some reasons, i enjoy Ahmad's company for the same reasons. he is the lepak kind and i dont have to keep explaining the obvious. 2 years are not very long dear friend. it will past by you without you realising it sometimes. he mentioned about enjoying his posting in the ot during his school days. mastectomy yeah Ahmad...? mastectomy done on the abdomen... hehe =)

oh yes! i saw Mira too. she is busy mugging. hehe. i wish i am busy mugging now. im too free at the moment. damn. i cant be too free because i will tend to do something silly. even Janna is busy with assignments for now. thats the thing about bestie and me. whenever im busy with thesis, she is free. when she is busy, im too free with time. sigh.

PS: in case you are reading my blog, give yourself a chance. take a break. i'll always stand by you. dont be despair.

sometimes, it get me thinking.. why is love such a pain...? if love is painful, why do people get involved with love...?

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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