# iced;

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

torn into pieces, 9:51 PM

i owe an apology. and im sorry. i need at least someone to support my decisions. im not game for situation where people will condem my decisions. i need someone to listen to everything i need to say. its burdening me if you at least realised that. it is awkward as it seems. it feels worst when you guys keep teasing me with someone i truly regard as a friend. he is just a friend. i do not have any of those special feelings. i wish i had. unfortunately, no.

i like someone else. he is amazing. ive been crying because i really like him. what a pity. but, yeah. and there is nothing i can do about it. and this is killing me. because i cant do anything about it.

despite the different races and religion, i am thankful for the amazing support. if you guys need to know, i feel very honoured and that includes the instant phonecalls you guys made for me. currently, i see that all 3 of us are in a huge mess. out of the 3, only 1 is out dating right now. hehe. and i am feeling really miserable. shucks! i cant even complete my thesis. i stop doing it for awhile now. penyakit parah ni. haha. sigh. THIS IS KILLING ME DAMMIT!!!

the girls at work dah berpenyakit jugak. they have been telling me to take off my tudung. how sick is that?? well, for some reasons, they claimed i would have looked better. why hide it? ive never have thoughts to take it off after ive seriously put on the hijjab. and please stop touching me!!!! you guys are killers! haha.

i need a breather.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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