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Thursday, May 01, 2008

torn into pieces, 8:18 PM

ive been really busy. my cousin was admitted in icu. the family were anxious as he was sedated and was on ett attached to the ventilator. he had IA line, CVP line and 2 IV lines. thats a hell lot. he was running hartman, adrenaline and tracium. when kakak messaged saying that he was critically ill, i unscrubbed and head straight to icu. Prof tak prof. peduli apa. in icu, everyone took turns to enter. i went in with my younger sister but we cant be long as we are taking turns to go in. mak as usual lama kat dalam. baca Juz Amma sekali agaknya.

Alhamdulilah. he is better now. happily transferred to the ward. just opposite the ward that i used to work. perfect. boleh merayap kat ward depan. hehe.

due to lack of sleep and rest, it was not easy to concentrate at work. i did ermm silly stuff. i hasnt scrubbed for bankart repair for quite sometime. it feels great to assist Dr A and he remember my name. heh. oh yes! he brought his ipod to the theatre. man! i love ALL his songs. the song 'umbrella' was playing. he asked Selena if she knows who is the singer. Selena kept quiet. so i said, 'its Rihanna!' dengan kuatnya aku pekik. he said, 'yeah. its Rihanna.' hahaa. by the time i scrubbed for Alph case, it was already 1500 hrs. only God knows how tired i was especially when i had to put on the lead apron. Ya Allah. since, ive never seen a corrective osteotomy before, i was so lost. i was expecting Selena to standby me at least but, she had to complete other tasks thus, i had to pandai2 sendiri. some things that i realised is, operating is just like driving. when your mind and body are tired, your reaction is slow. so slow that i gave him the saw without attaching the handle. 'Ifa, where is the handle?' 'oh yes.' sungguh memalukan! kalau bapak tiri punya case, confirm aku dah kena. lately, whenever he asked for things, he is like whispering. i had to pandai2 figure it out. next, i was searching for my pockets underneath the gown and lead apron that i accidentally exposed the waist line of my surgical stockings. very well, there were two surgeons behind me. *slapped forehead*

when i circulated for Anthony's case, he told me to take pictures. i ran and grab the camera and was ready to snap when he said, 'why are you aiming at the tatoo?' we laughed.

2008 is indeed a HAPPENING, BUSY, CHALLENGING year for me. when december comes, i hope to be a better person. 4 months have taught me to be independent. polite. happy. appreciate others. calm down. think rationally and learn to accept Allah's decision. life is wonderful. nonetheless, i still make mistakes and i will continue to make some more but, im learning from each and every. Alhamdulilah.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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