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Saturday, July 05, 2008

torn into pieces, 9:46 PM

the journey was tiring. its Bedok to Bukit Panjang with heels. even before Maghrib, i was in deep sleep. when i woke up its bamm 2000hrs. lots of rushing to do hur.

going out with the kids can be entertaining. i had to shred chicken for them. making sure the rice didnt get on the table. (alot of work if it does. anyway, rice arent that cheap.) and they called me aunty Ifa. i am not even married.. ='( one of the girls younger than i am is already with a child. Kak Siti turned to me and said, 'kau bila lagi? dia dah anak satu dah.' 'ni tengah cari lah ni sekarang.' damn! why am i not married..? why am i not having my own child..? not desperate. but, just wondering. i better get married to someone good. this 'hang in there' comes with CHALLENGE which i am very cool about it. Syukran. =)

i told the gang i kind of found someone but, im not sure if he found me. hah. the first reaction was, 'YES!' 'FINALLY!' nice champ who meets the criteria but apparently, i prefer us to stay as friends. its not easy to fall in love again. i dont have this trust in love anymore. thats sad because he is really a nice person. i had them saying, 'awww' in the end. how can love be so traumatising? i can remember vividly how i was hurt inhumanly. ok enough. i hate seeing myself hating people. this is not going to make me a better Muslim.

so before i left, i told Farz, 'eh, kau doa kan aku eh. mana tahu boleh buat majlis sama-sama next year.' i had Kak Siti laughed out loud.

come on Ifa. Riyadh. Riyadh. focus!

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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