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Sunday, August 31, 2008

torn into pieces, 7:06 PM

tonight will be the first night for solat Terawih. i am very excited with the coming Ramadhan even if i wont be fasting for the next 7 days. but, Insya'allah i will soon be. Kak Yati asked, 'kenapa excited?' 'entah. terbiat agaknya. but, baik jugak lah macam ni.' well, i dont feel like telling her that last Ramadhan was a ermm alittle unpleasant one for me. thus, i want to do it right this year. Insya'allah.

when Kak Yati and i discussed about our thesis, never did i realised that i am so going to rush for time if i dont finish my thesis on time. besides, i still have to study for exams. so, A or no A this semester...? aiyah! just 'sut' lah. i dont care. but, i'll do my best. Ust Fath (i dont want to spell his full name because when you goggle his name, my page might appear) will be going away soon for further studies. looking at him, got me thinking about my dream man. i am definitely not up to standard to become an Ustaz's wife. =) so, i never thought to become an Ustaz's wife. when, i look at myself, haisshh, cannot cannot. kena banyak2 muhasabah diri dulu.

so, the dream man. perhaps, what i need in a man is seorang yang boleh membimbing ke jalan yang diredhai. to be honest, during my Pergas days and until today, i envied those young husband and wife who attended religious classes together. i feel that when couples attended classes together, they can improve the relationship better. in fact, in fact, they can discuss about the topics brought up and hey, do the assignments together. thats not all, they can study for the exams together. or, when the wife tak masak she can easily said, 'kan nak exam. awak makan luar je lah. tak pun awak makan buku je.' hehee. baru boleh jadi isteri mithali. =P just kidding. just kidding.

each time i walked pass a Muslim family, i always dream i will have one of my own. the little ones will dress up in mini tudung and kopiah. these sad me because i am not even close to that. Masya'allah. sigh. my turn will come. its just a matter of time. this is what i call permintaan hati. =)

bus rides either keep my brain working or stop working. many a times, i did self reflection in the bus. Allah SWT Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihi. you know how much i want to work in MOT and how i grumble about the upgrading thing. lately, our nurse manager said, they will rotate us to train us in MOT for 4 Saturdays. well, with this new implementation, i get to experience how is it like in MOT. its like hah! bising bising kan. this is a trial for you. see if this is the place for you. i was speechless when they announced it. i am very thankful to Allah SWT. my prayers answered. these, strengthen my aqidah. =)

Have a wonderful Ramadhan. =)

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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