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Saturday, September 06, 2008

torn into pieces, 12:57 PM

five pages down and more to go. im amazed by how i can sit and complete 5 pages when i had a long, tiring day at work, went to bbdc for lessons at night, come back home, sit in front of the laptop and work on 5 pages until 0315 hrs. i guess, 500ml of latte works wonders. thus, i woke up at 1139 hrs!! ambik kau! hence, with all these, i have a swollen left eye here.

another Sister told me if i want a transfer to MOT, ive got to be serious about it so that they can write my name in the list. dont ask me what list. i dont know of any list. we have a list...? well, i said, 'i think about it thoroughly.' while, my friends kept reminding to becareful with what i ask for. i love DSOT. i love the people here. im comfortable here. but, of course the ups and downs are common everywhere. for one thing in mind i always wanted is to learn more which i dont get much opportunity here because we deal with slightly smaller cases eventhough we started assisting bigger cases each day. what im looking forward are cases like, liver transplant, cardio transplant not breast augmentation or long long never ending plastic cases.

my peers kept reminding me, 'Ifa, you're only a 1 year old nurse. you've got to calm down.' sigh. at the age of 22 right now, i am not even half way through or even close to an adv diploma. let alone the bachelor. i am not in major operating. i want to go Riyadh one day, you know. oh oh! wait a minute. who knows i get to assist open heart surgery in Riyadh instead...? hehee.

i am not even close to marriage. i am not even interested in seeing anyone unless the particular man i am interested in. =) even dia pun, i dont care that much. surprisingly. all these time, i just went, 'hi hi. yeah. how are you doing. ok bye.' each time the phone beeps, i feel irritated because im so used to not use the phone unless i really need it. im serious. if you see my phone, ive got 385 messages which i cant be bothered to clear. my emails have increased to 201 for one and 80 for another which i dont recall when was the last time i check my mails. but, i check the important ones though like school related or new face product hehe. oh, by the way, email me at nurzalifa@gmail.com if you want me to read your emails. at least, i log in there often.

i just sounded pathetic didnt i...? nonetheless, Alhamdulilah, despite my down moments, i can handle most things now. so there you go. =) i dont like people to see me weak or feel sorry for me or that i need help unless i really do or see me as an emotional, irrational person. hence, when i want to do it, i will do it and i make sure i do it right.

if i need any help, i want to get that toyota rush!! =) that car never fail to impress me. have a wonderful weekends you lovelies and selamat berpuasa.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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