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Thursday, September 04, 2008

torn into pieces, 10:15 PM

i never like Dr J because he always use vulgar words and he isnt really a nice surgeon to work with. whenever, i had to work with him and he starts to show unpleasant attitude towards me, aku pun apa lagi. especially when i feel there is no reason for him to do so.

unexpectedly, he is nice today. he talk to me like a human for once. he even touched my head and said, 'very puffy huh..?' 'its the hair', i said. he smiled and left. well... setiap angin yang baik akan aku hargai. =)

Mardia and i buka puasa together today (mananya puasa je). i told her sometimes i feel the need to have a partner but, sometimes i feel, i rather stay this way because of various reasons. i feel comfortable in my little world. Alhamdulilah. i feel as though i am a better person now (i dont know if others feel and see the same way though). i dont get angry easily. i smile more. no grudges. no hatred towards anyone. i takes things at my own stride. i feel so much better after so many many years. Alhamdulilah. thats why i said the breakup MUST happen otherwise, i dont think i will ever sit and think of all the things ive done. hehe. Allah probably want me to muhasabah diri so, He took away something really precious from me so that i learn. Alhamdulilah ala kulli hal... until today, ive never regret every single path i decided upon.

besides, i told Mardia of all the guys i check it out, there is one particular man who never fail to impress me and each time i said, 'aku tak suka dia.' the heart rumbles the opposite. =) therefore, Mardia said, 'dia suka ke tak suka ni..?' hahahaha. surprisingly, whenever i talk about him to mum, she seemed to like him too. he doesn't know though and especially with my situation right now, haha, lambat lah.... don't you look for him and tell him because i will strangle you!!

the bus that i boarded drove past Masjid Al-Khair. there were so many jemaah for terawih tonight at Al-Khair and this makes me wonder bila lah aku nak puasa ni.. sigh. i want to solat terawih too.

its Friday tomorrow and i cant wait to end the week. goodnight everyone. =)

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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