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Tuesday, September 09, 2008

torn into pieces, 10:48 PM

Shaye called me up while i was at the recovery room looking at today's list. obviously wondering when are we going to finish all the cases. she asked if i have free time to spare because she wanted to tell me something.

therefore, we went to theatre 1 in the dark and she said, 'Ifa, im resigning.' my heart sank. i had tears in my eyes. the first question that came out from me was, 'WHY?' and of course it follows with 'you dont like it here?' 'you find Singapore stressful.' 'why is everyone thinking about leaving?' 'i cant go anywhere because i am bonded here. what a pity.' 'please dont go.'

sigh.

she said she decided to go back to Australia. she have been moving around for a few years with her husband and they decided to move back to hometown because she miss her family and.... ok what im going to type next makes me sad... she is going to start her own family in Australia.

just when she finished saying that, i was speechless for a moment. this brings me to the usual statement. i am happy for her. i really do because we asked her that all the time when is she going to start a family and i knew it that she wanted to start it back in her own hometown. what makes me sad today is.... Oh God. i am not even close to starting my own family..

andd.. im sad that she is leaving us because, we are like a family here and i enjoy the friendship and i like working with her. we dance in the theatre together. we make faces behind the nasty surgeons together. we supported one another at work. we cracked stupid jokes. we enjoy class 95 together. each time i bought a new FRIENDS season, i told her about it. basically, i love her very much. first, it was Sheila. now, its Shaye. when Sowmiya leaves next year, i'll cry.

looking at everyone leaving makes me wanna leave too. i want to be in Riyadh if you ask me. in fact, a few of my batch classmate are already thinking about migrating to Australia. MIGRATING ok!

damn! i dont want to talk about it anymore for now. good night.

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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