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Saturday, October 11, 2008

torn into pieces, 8:06 AM

no matter how sucky Monday to Thursday can be for me and when on Friday i get to be in Dr Alph's theatre, it ALWAYS make me feel good. damn good. thus, this made me think that your surgeons CAN be your motivational drive.

for one thing, i told him, 'i didnt know you're doing matchmaking PART TIME..' haha. 'i am more than you can think of.' haha. he was very eager to introduce Dr Joao to Esther for some reasons. hehe. the moment the team asked me if i like salsa dancing, i said, 'nope. but, one of our AU nurses here love salsa.' that's when they asked who and all. it took me by surprised too that Dr Alph really looked for Esther just to introduce the both of them. heheh.

he turned to me and asked if i am interested in Jayan. wahahhaha. i said, 'NO. Jayan is married' so, thats my favourite doctor. =) jangan dia nak cari kan partner doctor sudah. not in the list langsung!

besides, we had a quite serious conversation about work. the conversation started to get comfortable that i told him i dont see and dont plan to stay in NUH for long. probably just after the bond. he listens unlike most nurse managers. i am so sorry to say this but, this is somehow the truth. however, he sees my decision not like how i see it. he sees it as NUH will be losing staff should every nurses think like how i did. thus, he wanted to know the root cause of the leaving and hence, retain the nurses. so, in my opinion, i told him more than i should have. all these time, i only posted it in the blog, told a friend, told Winny or told my preceptor but never had the courage to speak up. thus, when i had this opportunity to tell someone who have the position and power and approachable about how i feel about working here, i blasted it out. the best part of all, he listens. he is professional when i told him i want to leave after the bond because of various factors. he neither agreed nor disagreed. all he wanted to know is WHY.

by the way, im no good. thus, its okey if i stay or dont. =) i want to learn thats all.

i feel great because i have let it out. or rather blast it out. =) its just that the person i told to is to a fav doctor. heh.

to dear Winny, i just can't believe what happened under the operating table. wahahhahahakaka.

i will be very glad to whoever who sees my potential and capability to help me spread my wings. please please do not keep me just because i can be in your favour. however, if i am useless and not up to standard, let me know and give me time for improvements. because almost every month i have thoughts of leaving. even to a simple thing like, the bus service sucks. so many people and i dont get a seat. terrible smell from everyone in the bus. NUH busstop and dsot is so far. i hate to climb the stairs. the zebra crossing near NUH is unsafe. see, i can already start a list now. heh.

have a nice day everyone. =)

it hurts.

Be in good health first and foremost.. Weigh ermm at least a 40kg.. To do an adv diploma in nursing.. Be an excellent & dedicated perioperative nurse. I want to canoe & rock climbing someday.. To get married! Haha.. Not so soon still..

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