i apologised. =)
i promised to be more patient and understanding.
i drove a new car. very very very smooth. but, very very very sensitive. he always said, 'ok, nyanyi satu lagu sekarang.' hehe. as i am near completion, i am worried. eh, boleh ke tak boleh ni. but, i am cool. no stress.
i assisted Dr Asim's open herniarraphy with no assistant today. he said i am an important person and he accommodated to my shortness during operation by insisting the table not to be pumped up. i am honoured. =) however, when i see him bending over, i told him that i do not mind climbing on the stool. he claimed that i am assisting him well but, i am not treating him well. ;P cis!
some people kept reminding me that when i go over, never change. change in attitude aspect. always be humble. control the temper and be more patient to others. Insya'allah. semoga Allah sentiasa memelihara.
ALL THE TIME, my weakness is, whenever, i did something not right or i hurt others, i never fail to feel guilty after that and you will find me apologising in the morning time. =) sounds very familiar.
i am a little sad lately. sad to leave the department. lots of memories. lots of ups and downs. more laughters but, never a cry. i am thankful to the senior nurses and my professors who taught me from holding an artery to holding a camera for laparoscopic surgeries. letting me participate in removal of simple implants and simple suturing. how is life like in major theatre i always wonder..
at work, they started out this weird way of calling my name saying they won't have the chance to call my name anymore later. =) so cute, but very disturbing. hehe.
yesterday, i assisted a less favourite surgeon. very impatient man. yesterday, he pricked his finger. i quickly turned and asked, 'are you okey? do you want a change of gloves? can we wash your hand with spirit?' i hated him for awhile because when he shouted at me when i was brand new, everyone turned to me. theatre sebelah pun boleh dengar. it was embarrassing if you ask. looking at how i have reacted, i can't believe i can do this bit here. drop the hatred and be more concern when people i hate or hated are in trouble. andd, i did not say 'padan muka' heheh.
life definitely goes on and i am moving on just the same. however, slowly but eventually.
