it is finally Saturday. Alhamdulilah. i am aching to the bones and i miss my macbook. hehee. due to the tiredness and busy reading, i rarely have time for macbook and friends.
Kak Yati and i were being typical Singaporean. hah. we are busy finding articles, books or anything related to our topic which is NOT easy to find. i went library after library and i could only find 2 books. my topic this time is Hibah. Hibah means hadiah, pemberian, gift, present. definitely, not as easy as finding about Riba'. =) i was all out this time because i am afraid of not having enough time at the later part of the semester especially when i won't be in where i am right now.
the work have been a pleasant place for me lately. heh. i have been having praises lately. perhaps, they knew that i was leaving so, they praise me now and give me a hard time in major theatre. all i wanted is to prove to these surgeons that although we are just day surgery nurses, we are as capable. especially, to this particular surgeon who commented on our inefficiency. nonetheless, i believe that every good deed comes from Allah SWT. every praises are not meant for me but for Allah SWT. without God's help, i am not what i am and where i am right now. Praise to Allah. hence, avoid me from being riya' and takabbur, dear Allah.
Mum always said that although i am not the smart2 kind but, murah rezeki. Alhamdulilah, i always got what i want in life. i just got to be patient because God is listening. however, under my breath, i mumbles, 'yeah, i got those, but not the man i want to be with.' =) perhaps, God wants me to understand some factors in life first before i meet the man for me. redha is the key to all. when we comes to terms with it, it will be simple. easy easy, like what panget will say.
i have until mid February in dsot. i feel that my days are numbered here. along this road, many people tried to change my decision in many ways. haha. i am happy some are happy if i could stay but, i am thinking about my future. i do not want to regret later in life that i never bother to sit and think about upgrading myself. anyway, HR sent me a letter from Griffith University, saying, are you the sort of person who will go further in nursing? registration is open now! heheh. this makes me think about my bond which will end next year! it feels fast.
each time Dr Kevin see me around, he said, 'missy, orthopaedics, MOT.' he have been trying to talk to me into orthopaedics. hehe. but, whenever i see Ben, he said, 'CTVS!' i assisted Ben many times but, only once for Kevin. whatever it is, it feels good to be appreciated and recognised. whichever discipline i will be, it will be a learning path for me. in fact, i don't want to stay put in one discipline throughout my nursing years or in one hospital throughout. its good to move around.
Prof L Tan came to operate on one of our doctors here. i happened to assist his case. after surgery, he asked how have i been and my plans in future and i told him. when i was a few months old in dsot, he left for private practice thus, since then, i never see him. when he came, he told me that recently, he employed a fresh graduate registered nurse from NYP. wow! not many fresh grads want to work in private, not that i know of. private are of higher demand but, they pay you. as in pay you in big sum.
this brings me to the brief conversation i had with Prof D Lomanto yesterday. he said, nurses in Europe are paid blah blah. its so unfair we stand for almost the whole time of the day that we develop varicose veins and spider veins, we run many times to another theatre or tssu whenever we need more instruments, we are expose to the xrays, we have rough hands because of the antiseptic detergent, stiff neck, heavy instruments, the II apron is so heavy, the neck shield is so stiff macam nak tercekik aku pakai and we are paid like, you describe. let alone when you're having cramps and had to do fixation with that bloody II apron. especially when i have to stand in the bus after work and it jammed. shit!
there goes my money. on surgical stockings and hand creams!! i am so dependent on the hand cream that i can never leave home without it.
nonetheless, no regrets still.
anyway, i just discovered that this Jo guy is good looking. beautiful eyes. not local. but, very good looking. single i heard. =)
