lets wrap it up. wrap it up. wrap it up.
I feel good today. i really do. Alhamdulilah.
remember the particular surgeon who shouted at me when i was brand new and the other theatre probably heard him...?
he complimented me today. =) i am very surprised. very surprised. after the case, he asked my senior nurse about me. he said i am Janet's disciple! for everyone's information, Janet is the best scrub nurse in dsot according to me and many others. i am definitely nothing compared to Janet. Janet is so experienced, so calm, so steady, so cool in facing all types of surgery. she does cardio surgery before by the way. everyone likes her. i am nothing. i really am. when i assisted him this morning, my hands are shaking because, he is so so fast, extremely impatient and i am just afraid i can't meet up with his speed. Alhamdulilah, everything went well. i am thankful to God.
it feels good to be appreciated especially from a surgeon who once told me off. i am glad he sees my capability today and he don't think of me as a 'cannot make it nurse'. i've mention this a few times, if anyone sees my potential, let me fly. help me fly.
this reminds me of one person who broke my heart. he once told me, 'i believe you can do almost everything.' over the years, somehow, i believe in those words and i live with it. thank you for instilling this to my thick skull. :) just for my own comfort, not bragging, i know i can do many things especially without you. over this time, i have very much proven it to myself. Alhamdulilah.
thus, i still believe that Riyadh is where i will be.
jauhkan diri ini daripada takabbur, ya Allah.
i had my night drive two days ago. my instructor is well known for his fierceness. i was so tired and i was on my feet the whole day that day. come on, it is 2200 hrs. somehow, i made him laugh and he was at ease. so was i. he introduced me to the driving orientation, the one after completion. however, he claimed that it would be just waste of money. he said if i am married, i can ask my husband to sit next to me. i said, 'saya tak kahwin lagi.' 'atau boyfriend ke?' 'saya tak ada boyfriend.' i smiled. 'aik. jambu macam ini, tak ada boyfriend?' 'tak jambu sangat rasanya.' we laughed. that, made my day. =)
i've decided who i wanted to be with me on my first drive without my driving instructor. who else could this person be. this person is definitely the neighbour. =) or, it could be, come on Ahmad, let's gear up.. =) Ahmad mesti nak pakai 2 seatbelts. heheh.
good night.
thank you, Dr S Chang. =)
