Winny and i had a great time with the talking with the amount of food yesterday. well, today may just be the talking but, the future will unfold it's destiny. hence, we will soon know.
i brought up working overseas to her. the first thing she said is, 'the middle east??' 'no. probably Australia or somewhere.' she is interested in London instead. London is good. i am okey. however, nothing beats middle east for me. Riyadh, UAE, Dubai. but, i am cool either ways. like i said today may just be the talking. we have planned out our short term goals. do our bachelors here and work overseas when it is permeable. because, we do not know who we will meet 6 months or a year down the road. when people are busy saving up for the weddings, we are busy saving up for the visas. =)
overseas may be a good opportunity for me to explore more about myself, career and the surroundings. i would say it is a good getaway. whenever, i mention about getaway, i could hear panget words screaming to my ears. 'do it for the right reasons!' i am doing this for myself besides other factors.
i called up my insurance agent if they have coverage for the overseas. they said NO. what a shame.
i'll finish up diploma pengajian Islam and do a degree here and i will be on the move. after that, i won't care about what people got to say to me about anything anymore. i have been thinking and worried about peoples' feelings and future too much that i think i should start thinking about myself and my future.
Winny is doing excellent. i am very proud of her. she managed to do this one thing i can never do without feeling upset or guilty after that. i usually cry after that but, she did not! i am happy for you. she began ranting about some perspectives that never occur to me a month after i broke up but, she sees it all in great details. good.
see, who said women cannot live without man? we sure can. i never date man that i don't know very well after i broke up. because i am not comfortable. especially those who rides and expect me to sit on their bikes. the answer is NO. i pick and choose my man. so, if i ever asked any man out is because i am okey with you. lately, on and off, i only meet Ahmad for coffee. i am comfortable with him mainly because he respect me. although Ahmad is single, he never whine to me about being single and depress about being single like some man i know. cool and tak kisah lah apa nak jadi, jadi ah. i always tell him that when i got a car of my own, i drive him around. =)
i promise Winny that i send her to the airport on the 24th. hmm, what will i do after that in that early morning..... well, i could stay there for awhile after that, bring the macbook, talk to myself, use the webcam, get to know the guy that sat next to me, smile at the next gorgeous man i see, day dream, look into the mirror, straighten the tudung, read a book, people watching, maybe shopping. =P
