i am thankful for the support.
so you see. today is a lesson learn. the importance to have a little confidence in yourself. sikit pun jadi..
i had my driving test in the morning. during the warm up time, it was smooth. the vertical, parallel, s-course, crank course. everything was perfect. yes! PERFECT. i can't believe it for myself. we warm up on the road. it was PERFECT too. zero defects. speed control was ok. when usually, my speed control hancus!
comes to the test, i was given a Malay instructor. very nice. very fatherly. everything went smooth until, i hit the curb when i was moving off from vertical parking and i hit the pole. so, there you go...
i wasn't disheartened. heart made of stone. i don't give up easily in certain situations i know i can nail. we move off to the road. i tried not to think that i was observed or tested. i drove independently... drive drive drive. until he said, ok.. 'we are going to go back to bbdc.'
so here you go...
'yang awak pergi hit the curb tu buat apa?' hahhahha. 'that is all you failed.'
'yang kat luar macam mana pulak?'
kat luar ok. lane change ok. blindspot ok. u-turn ok. speed control ok.
memang tak percaya. but, i was very very very careful. drive dengan penuh perasaan. in total, i score 12 points and 1 immediate failure. sungguh sayang sekali.
but, i felt that i did my best especially with my unwell situation, this is something. really something. but, i am angry that i don't have confidence in myself and i believe when people say, 'first timer mesti tak pass.' :)
i am so scared of curbs now. hehe. ramp you curbs. :)
Miya was amazed. she said, 'your reaction can change so fast. you wasn't upset because you flung. you are upset because of the snap and about a missing friend.'
yes! i wasn't upset because i didn't make it today. i wasn't. i was laughing about it. just a little angry with my lack of confidence and i kept telling myself i would fail because it was my first time.
but, i am upset because of a missing friend whom i was trying to contact many times. she simply disappear. i was upset with a snap from somebody. i don't always have problems. i refer to you because, i know you as an expert in this and i know you have interest in this as well. why wouldn't you let yourself teach me some of your skills? if i would have spoken to you last night, i may have some confidence. but of course, i blame myself for hitting the curb today. :)
i've got to watch FRIENDS now. watching them makes me happy. very happy. :) especially, Joey.. or Chandler or... Monica orr Rachel Greene.. or Phoebe orrr Professor Ross Geller. i love them ALL. or maybe Gunther.. hehe. Gunther who? Gunther Central Perk. hehe..
my situation best describe the double Rs, Rachel and Ross's driving scene..
'well maybe he saw your hands slip briefly from the 10 to 2 o'clock position.' hahaha.
take care you all.
