sad day..
i feel like i am dreaming. i can't believe that i am leaving. no. i left day surgery theatre. i cried badly. on this last day, i can see the true colours. those who will cry with you. who wish you all the best from their hearts or those who simply don't care.
my mum always tell me to leave a place in a nice way. i am glad that i heed her advice. i went into Sisters' office and sees this particular Sister and i gave her the card i wrote for her. i do not know why i was very emotional. i cried so much. she gave brilliant advices. she tell me it is going to be alright. we hugged and i left.
Janet was looking for me when i overtime for the last time here. we were doing fixation work. she looked for me to say goodbye. Janet have always been very supportive whenever i am in GS theatre especially plastics surgeries. i cried, as always. she touched my head and tell me, 'i believe in you. you can do it. but, if you feel like giving up, don't resign. come back here.'
some other staff who wish good bye and all the best and hug.
i managed to speak to Elena about neuro discipline. she was in neuro theatre for many many many years. she is the veteran in neuro discipline.
like what Kak Noorliah said, 'we are always fear of the unknown but, when we get familiar with things, we will be fine.'
i am not sad because i am afraid of the life i will be in, in the coming years. but, i am sad because i am leaving great people, easy life, the friendship. yes. it have always been the friendship and the place. this place where i grow, nurture, learn about life, career, people, love, independence, sacrifices, friendship, also, the place, i choose as a distraction for my breakup. andd, i learn to be impatient too. hehhe.
it have been a great year for me. Miya said, ' you broke up, she broke up, i broke up.' the breakup year. just that mine was oct 31 2007! a year ahead. hahah. theirs came later on. whatever it is, we went through thick and thin together despite the differences. i always call it.
let's wipe these tears away and lets stay focus and learn about emergency theatre. ive got to learn fast man. there so many emergency disciplines. i don't get to choose what kind of emergency cases they're gonna push in.
i am just going to do it. times like now, i always remember someone saying, 'always remember that you can achieve anything. its just a matter of endurance.'
i am doing this for my parents, for my future, for life, for the people who are sick and needed me, for the man to be. why? because, i want to be financially stable before marriage. i don't want to be financially dependent after marriage. i wanted a better living for my parents and myself. i wanted stability.
soooo.. way to go..
i cried to much, my nose is blocked.
all i want to do is, watch Friends and eat cuttlefish. i don't know why cuttlefish. don't ask.
