for one reason or another, i am thankful for the presence and the unexpected phone call.
aku akur akan banyak perkara yang tidak mungkin akan sama ataupun yang tidak akan berubah.
don't worry dear people who always care about me. i know where i stand and i am aware.
after knowing him for many years, sometimes, i find that i don't really know him. he kept quiet when comes to certain issues which can bring to 2 reasons.. he is afraid whatever he is going to say will hurt me OR he have no answers.
and i..... am so tired of finding answers. i don't want to find find answers anymore.. biarlah Tuhan tunjukkan jalan terbaik.
Sufie always ask, 'Fa, kalau dah jodoh macam mana?'
my first answer is always... 'hmm.. banyak kerja tu. hahah'
whatever it is, i am glad he called because, i really miss him. i miss talking to him. i didn't know how to say that i kinda miss him but, i did it anyway because i really do and i just want him to know and i don't care what he want to say because, i miss him without the thought of us back on again. lantak lah apa dia nak fikir.
i told him, 'awk ni macam setan ah. apa amalannya ni? you ah.. no matter what happened in the past, i can forgive. i still come back and look for you. i want to find your replacement!' hahah. nasib baik tak cakap... 'ure fired!'
there are factors that can make him happy...
tiada masalah.
not in the situation of no money.
factors that makes me happy..
a good laugh.
hati yang tenang.
tolong orang.
pergi medical mission.
kerja kat Riyadh.
now that this blog is just for my eyes to read and refer to, i am happy to write anything i like. no restrictions.
when i hang up the phone, i know that the next time i get to talk to him is a few months from now. :)
takpelah.. Ya Allah asalkan ini jalan yang terbaik buat kami.
kadang-kala, i find that us, like this is much better.
