i got to know a new friend. well, first, he is just a friend and i have no intention to bring it to any level. i find that it feels good to know someone new. i feel that i am moving on a little. Alhamdulilah..
but..
i am feeling down right now. seriously, i do. i don't understand why but, i hope to feel better in few days time.
i don't miss him like how i was a few months ago. but, i am sad.. i am scared to move on. seriously. tak ada sesiapa pun yang tahu. one thing that i know is that i never expected anything in return may it be love or care or share or companion or friendship.
well, of course he never replied my messages. kalau dia reply pun macam terpaksa. Ifa, he is not there anymore and he will never be. everyone is sorry that it have ended. i tried so hard to make things better. i wrote in my diary on one of the things i want to achieve this year is to win him back. this is just April and i am so exhausted of trying. i am so scared of playing with risks.
Ya Allah..
i can't tell this to my friends because they would never understand. that is why whenever i face them, i hide it so tight so that it will never slip or show on my face.
sadly come to think of it
i continue again.. i feel terrible..
