i saw Izzad at BPP with Frances. we were deciding where to have ice cream when i saw him. i supposed he saw me first because when i turned and notice him, he was already smiling. he walked up to the elevator and walked back to me and held his hand. he was still smiling and said, 'congratulations.'
i kept looking at him. i remember my mouth ache because i was not smiling but, grinning. hence, i remember looking confused and shocked. he was smiling widely too. it have been a long time since we last seen one another. i am very amazed by the fact that we don't kill one another when we see each other. see, i am trying to tell you that i don't hold grudges against you whatever that have happened. in fact, i thanked Allah for His willingness to make it happen.
i was sad. i am always sad when i see him. thus, i know that i am not prepared to see him. i don't love him. i don't think i do. its just that i do not like to see things broken or failed. but, life goes on for me. apa pun, it is not easy to be together again especially after i feel that i have moved on a little.
